Dancing in Time Chapter 8
A Time to Speak - Part II
Foreword: Some things may seem out of context here, but bear with me. Things will be explained later on, I promise. :)
Sometimes we learn more from a
than from his virtues.
--Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
April 23rd 12:08 am
The mist weighed heavily on her skin. It covered her body like a ghostly security blanket. Rinoa opened her eyes to find herself standing amongst a dense sea of fog. The coarse silhouettes of headstones stood on the near horizon, as the fickle moonlight only offered enough illumination to register where she was. She knew this place too well too damn well.
Rinoas lungs quickly reminded her that she had to breathe; she answered their call reluctantly. She crossed her arms over her chest, holding tightly against her body. Anxiety mixed with fear sent a surge of adrenaline to course through her veins. The heel of her shoe sank into the muddy terrain, as an unworldly fear exploded through her veins. She took another hesitant step toward the headstones, fighting against inner turmoil. The air felt unusually stagnant, making her breathing labored and deep. This was reminiscent of the nightmares she had as a child. A small gasp escaped her lips as she read the name on the first headstone. Gravity could no longer be denied, as she found herself collapsing under the pressure of her own weight.
Why why was she here?
Uncertain hands traced the indentations of her mothers etched name, each letter more painful than the last. The ruthless November wind picked up, causing an indescribable chill. Dead leaves fell off a nearby oak tree, as foliage trickled to the earth like rain. Rinoa shivered alone in her solitude, and for a moment, she felt her sanity slowly ebbing.
The voice felt so comforting. It seemed to be a beacon in the tempest raging within her own mind. Still kneeling on the ground, body frail and trembling, the young girl turned toward the speaker.
Where where am I who are you? She questioned through her labored gasps.
The woman walked forward, gently reaching for the girls shoulder. She kneeled next to Rinoa, using her free hand to gently smooth her hair. Every word planned and precise, Im here to make the pain go away.
This isnt real. I remember running here one night, but I was only a child. I was five years old! This isnt right Im older now this isnt how it no. What is happening!?
Were you really five when you came here? Can you really be sure?
Yes yes, I remember it like it was yesterday. I was so scared. It was so dark
What do you honestly remember, Rinoa? The pain, the guilt, the images that haunt your every waking moment until this very day? Time is nothing, an illusion, one that can be rewritten You alone can change this. It is the past, it is the future. It is all the same.
What are you talking about? Who what? Please, just quit talking in riddles! Who who are you? demanded Rinoa, although not too articulately.
The womans human form moved closer, again comforting the distressed girl. My name is not important. Its just another useless label placed upon us. It is what we can achieve together that is important. Together, you and I have the ability to change your past, to reshape your future.
Youre the youre the sorceress, she said in a tone barely above a whisper. Rinoa pushed Ultimecia away, as she struggled to her feet. No longer wanting any form of comfort from the motherly figure, she took a step back, until her body rested next to her mothers grave. You you look different than back in Deling.
That is because that body was not my true form. It belongs to another, just like you, who wants the empty void to cease.
No, that woman we just faced it was the person who took care of Squall and the others Edea, her name is Edea; shes the one we fought. It wasnt you! We won.
Child, there are no winners or losers. Did you not see the pain reflected in their eyes, the people you fight beside? They have suffered as much, or even more, than you have. Edea only desired to fix the mistakes of the past, to take their emptiness away.
Rinoa wanted to scream, wanted to run, but she had no idea where she was. This woman had to be lying. Rinoa knew Squall still carried the pain of the past, and that is why an emptiness in his heart. He would be fine; it was just his nature. Wait what mistakes was she talking about?
Taking a small step forward, Rinoa realized that she couldnt even see her feet. She almost seemed to glide across the air, long dark robes hiding most of her form.
Do you not see the hurt within the eyes of their leader, his pain far outweighing that of the others? He will not live past this. His soul is in torment no matter how emotionless he may act. This is the beginning of his self-destruction. This is what Edea wants to change, which is why I need your help you alone can save him.
No, you are lying!
Am I? Ultimecias voice never wavered, the motherly tone always present. No signs of anger or frustration, only a certain confidence projected into each word. Did you not wonder why all of this is happening at once? Or why the change in the person known as their Matron? The future of those children is dim. She is acting to save their souls. Now you have fought and destroyed her but in reality, you have destroyed your friends. Their fate has been decided you condemned them to eternal damnation.
No, Edea was slain they are free.
If they are free, why are you here? I am the only one who can help them. They are mere grains of sand in the hourglass of time Their existence will be in vain, unless Never mind, you are not strong enough. Your father is right.
Rinoa started to feel a growing anger. All her life her father thought of her as weak, and she proved him wrong by leaving. She worked for freedom, she worked for honor, and she worked for all those things proving she was strong. This woman in front of her wasnt going to speak about Caraway.
Dont you talk about him! Why did you bring me here, to this place!?
I did not bring you anywhere. You are in a place in between reality and fantasy; I can only guide you along this path. I cannot choose it. I think your mind brought you here, to show you what could have been your deepest regret. You could have saved your mother, you could have saved your friends, and you could still
No! I wont listen to you. This is not real.
Yes, it is. I can show you the past, much as Ellone did for the others. I cannot show you things that didnt take place everything is real. I can show you what Squall doesnt want you to know. I can show you why you came back to this point in your life.
I am fighting beside him because he wants me to be there.
Foolish child. Do you think he would train all his life for a battle, only to have a stranger fight beside him? No, he has never thought of you as anything but a burden. It is your heritage that he wants around...not you. Caraway is a source of great power. To Leonhart, your father is a great ally.
Rinoa opened her mouth to speak. Before she could protest, soft mud turned into marble, and gusting wind was replaced by familiar music. She now stood among the dancing couples at the SeeD graduation. She blinked whipping her eyes, this was a dream, it had to be. Why did it feel so real?
The sorceress faded into the ballroom shadows. Thankfully, the familiar scene was more welcomed than the cemetery. A couple was dancing close, and for a moment, she believed they would run into her. She tried to move, but didnt make it. Their bodies passed through her image as if it was an apparition. A chill from the encounter caught her off guard. It felt as if her spirit had momentarily entered anothers body.
She started scanning the crowd. Frantically, she searched for the person she knew would be there. And there he was, standing against the wall, just as she had remembered. She wanted to run up to Squall and wrap her arms around him. Before for she could act on the idea, another version of herself walked up to him. Was it actually possible to be jealous of yourself? If it was, it was the only way to describe the overwhelming feeling right now.
The music seemed to fade into the background. From behind, the calming voice of the sorceress spoke softly over the crowds.
He has always acted that way but it is not his true self. You were not the first, nor would you be the last. He is putting on a mask just as you were. Ask any of the others he has danced with. He knows how to dance, nobody learns that quickly my dear. The first words out of his mouth to you were a lie. Does that not speak of his character?
What are you how did you know? Why had she never realized the first words he spoke to her were a lie? He had known how to dance; he had admitted as much later on. He just wasnt good unless he focused there was a difference. Wait, what others?
Yes, now I have your attention, dont I? Squall Leonhart is nobodys fool. He is not the angel you made him out to be, nor his he the troubled teenager who cannot love. In fact, quite the opposite, he has played his game as long as you have played yours. Listen, search for the truth within your own heart. His thoughts are recorded onto the script of the past
The music ended and fireworks ignited in the nocturnal sky. Rinoa watched her phantom look toward the main door, before seeing the headmaster socializing with a few partygoers.
What a bitch. She could hear his words echo throughout her mind, Whatever good riddance.
He didnt say that, did he? Rinoa tried to desperately remember. Her mind at the time was so focused on speaking with Cid that anything Squall might have muttered went unnoticed. She turned to Ultimecia, quickly defending an action she wasnt sure even took place.
He didnt mean it! Look, I just walked away what else would he say? He didnt he didnt know me back then I was the one who was wrong!
Oh, but he did know you, didnt he? It wasnt as if you hadnt played that little game before either. Maybe his first impression of you was the most accurate, maybe it is the illusion that he sees before him in the present.
Ultimecia remained patient. She realized that this girl was still defending his actions; her spirit would need to be broken in another time. In that one fatal moment her victim clung to her in her nightmares. To get Rinoa to give up her future, she would have to turn toward the past. Take her to the moment that her fear was born
Rinoa felt an odd sensation radiating from her fingertips. Outstretching one arm, she was shocked to see her fingers morphing into those of a child. She looked at her teenage reflection in the darkened glass of the ballroom, as the sky behind the window seemed to radiate brighter. Slowly each star became more lucid, and she was no longer in the ballroom but standing outside, underneath the heavens. Rinoa couldnt speak. Again, she strained to fill her lungs with oxygen. Looking around, she gasped aloud in recognition; she remembered this highway how could she forget?
Her tiny delicate fingers fisted as she had the memories of a five-year-old mixed with those more embittered by the years. She was reliving this horrible night again, the one she tried so desperately to suppress. She heard two men talking, realizing that she actually was still in her own body just from twelve years ago.
Im sorry Major Caraway, I cannot let anyone pass.
Dammit, shes my wife! I have to I have to see her.
Caraway pushed the man out of the way, disregarding his daughters own fears. He left her standing alone in the cold. She watched the hypnotic flashing of the red lights until she just had to run. It felt like her feet werent touching the ground, an urgency she had never known took over.
In the distance, a siren echoed in the background, but the sound went unnoticed by the little girl. Rinoas younger form stopped running as childhood eyes fixated on the wreckage. A tiny sliver of what appeared to be the taillights emerged from over the embankment. Pieces of glass and fiberglass were strewn like a lethal blizzard. Her tears ran freely, tracing their own unique path down reddened cheeks. Yet, she could not speak no words came. She felt the hand of someone behind her. Looking over her shoulder, she saw a uniformed man; he offered her little comfort with a forced smile, before embracing her in a hug.
It will be all right.
What an outright lie. Even as her younger self, she knew this soldier was trying to shield her from the reality. Did he not see the carnage, the horror, the blood? The blood why, why was she forced to witness this again? It had to be another horrific dream, or some sick, cruel joke by fate it had to be. Again, she was forced to experience the revulsion first hand. Again, her father left her alone in the darkness. Again, her only solace was coming from a stranger. Amid the mortally bitter night, Rinoa felt each tear crystallizing eternally on her face and eternally on her soul.
I have to see mommy, she said softly, never telegraphing her intentions to the guard. Ducking underneath his arms, she lowered her head, and ran down the steep incline of the hill. She used every ounce of energy to outrun the man. When Rinoa reached the bottom, she witnessed her father stained with her mothers blood. He cradled her limp body in his arms.
Why Julia? Why did it have to be you?
The young image took a step back, but the spirit of teenage Rinoa remained standing firm on that spot. Finally, she had broken free from the chains that bound her, from the past she had remembered. Behind her, she could hear the sounds of her younger self being physically restrained by the officer. The soldier spoke to her, trying to calm her younger form, but older Rinoa ignored his words. This time she could do what she couldnt before go to her mother.
She took a few tentative steps forward, leaving all remnants of her former memories on the hill. All at once, she began running with sudden urgency, afraid that this moment in time would also fade away. The figure of Caraway disappeared into the same nothingness as her younger self, as did everyone else. It left her, the mangled vehicle, and the grotesque remains of her mother.
Mom mommy, she gasped falling to the debris and blood soaked pavement. No no please dont leave me. Im scared, I cant do this alone.
Rinoa shivered, as a sudden rush ran through her body at the familiarity of the words. Her mothers hand fell off her stomach and onto the ground lifelessly.
Feeling the branches of a nearby bush scratch her back, she turned. It felt as if the plant had been reaching for her with skeletal hands. The green leaves turned to an earthen shade of brown; it looked like someone hitting the fast-forward button on Mother Nature. A shimmer reflected from within the brush when the red strobe of the ambulance flashed. Her mothers ring her wedding band. Rinoa reached through the thicket, retrieving the object. To her surprise, she felt a painful sting on the side of her wrist. She retracted her arm in surprise, and the platinum band fell on to the street.
Between the pain of her heart and the pain on her body, she managed to look down to her wrist. Rinoa saw a large brown spider slowly crawling up her skin like a predator. On adrenaline alone, she shook her arm, tossing the intruder several meters away. She didnt have time to be frightened. At that moment, something far more important was disappearing.
Grabbing the ring, she pressed it firmly against her palm. Returning to her mother, she saw her eyes staring back vacantly. The once beautiful orbs were replaced by a glassy emptiness. Small streams of blood trickled down from Julias mouth. Yet through it all, her mother held indescribable beauty.
Rinoa slowly raised her hand, wiping the thick liquid from her mothers lips. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the spider creeping over her mothers corpse. There was this vile creature, laying some kind of demented claim to her mothers body. Her trembling hand wanted to brush it off, yet all she could do was sit paralyzed as it crawled in her mothers blood.
A voice sliced through the night, once again coming to her rescue when nobody else dared. Ultimecia reached down, moving her hand across Julias face. With one fluid motion, her face returned to normal. Now it just looked as if her mother were sleeping peacefully.
Now, you remember what it feels like to have paralyzing fear. The images were always there, suppressed in the deepest parts of your mind. You did see your mother that night, not up close only from afar. You watched your father leave. He walked away from you that evening, forgetting his daughter. You never got over that you never could.
He he did leave I remember they tried to find him but someone had driven him back to the manor.
If that is not abandonment of a child, then what is? You cried alone the night of your mothers death. He forgot you. She never did. This doesnt have to happen . He left you for two years, to be watched by relatives you hardly knew. Your own flesh and blood dropped you off like a dog at a kennel. Dont try to fight it anymore
Mommy no She rasped out between frantic breathes; she wanted to cry out for anyone anyone who would listen. Anyone who could give her comfort. Squall where are you? Please. It was all becoming too much; she wasnt sure if this was reality, or if the other was. Could one person possibly have the ability to mend all that fate broke?
At last, her tolerance started to waiver. Ultimecia knew she was getting close, as lines were becoming blurred. The last straw however, would be the one grain of hope she still held on to; the one that was also fighting for her soul even if Rinoa never knew of the battle taking place
You cant count on him! He lives a wretched existence. His life is full of lies and deceit. His true self isnt the one you saw fighting next to you. He is the snake, and you are nothing but the mouse he is hunting slowly, methodically. He wants you for power. Even you know those who are the most quiet, are the most dangerous. They never stop thinking, never stop planning He doesnt want you as a person, only as a paycheck.
The whole thing appeared like a montage. Bits, pieces, and mere clips of images played in her mind. She was watching herself, watching him it didnt matter his thoughts were all she could hear.
It was on a train, the second time they met. He pushed her away
Get off me you leach.
Seifers girlfriend? Im sure his and about a thousand others.
Immature, spoiled brat, why the hell would Almasy even want you?
These people are idiots, led by a superficial ditz.
Next, the scene changed to an evening in Deling. The Sorceress coronation Parade had begun. Rinoa was obediently standing behind Edea, lost in a trance. On the street Irvine and Squall, stood
Isnt that Irvine trailed.
Its Rinoa do I have to keep a leash on her?
It was the same night, only minutes after they defeated the Iguions in the palace. Rinoa grabbed his arm as he started walking away.
I have to shut her up. Her whining is going to destroy this whole mission, she heard him inwardly say. His vocal answer was one she had come to treasure over the last year, Just stay close to me. Now the words seemed irrelevant, knowing the moments leading up to it.
It flipped to three figures sitting on the roof of the clock tower. A carousel filled with jesters and clown figures
She doesnt want Seifer to die she rather sacrifice me if given the chance.
The final images were what led her to this moment, the armed conflict that escalated between the two Gardens. Black and white, good and bad, Squall and Seifer .
Im going to kill Zell. Ill never forgive him for this I liked that ring. Ill never get it back now.
Dammit, I dont have time to save her, someone else can do it.
Why, why does have to be me? So you guys can continue to live in your fantasy world? There are other people here, not just some woman who I have run around saving like a child.
Hyne, just go back to Seifer. You two deserve each other.
The next she saw was a montage of images, words, and thoughts that would finally break her. Her mother, her father, every time she mourned the loss of friend or relative all rolled into one heart-wrenching minute. Moments of Squalls life strategically placed to undermine everything she ever believed about him. Moments of her life to undermine who she was, everything she believed about herself.
She tried to dismiss the images, believe them to be some kind of cruel hoax or hallucination. Yet, she knew they were true. She always had a way of getting on peoples nerves, what made her believe Squall would be any different?
You heard how he truly feels. I worry that you cannot handle more of the truth. Now is the time to turn mouse into mongoose, and kill the snake. Your mother loved you, she was the only one close your eyes, dont try to fight the sensation... Just go to sleep, and when you wake up, everything will be just how it should have been. Your pain will end. You can change this path, and save the only person who ever loved you just close your eyes and sleep.
Rinoa looked down to see her mothers face one last time. Every emotion was becoming too much to bear if her mother hadnt left that night. Maybe Rinoa could do one thing in her life without screwing it up maybe everything could change. The past to become the present and start anew. The pain and hurt she felt seemed to be engulfed with a newfound tranquility and peace. Ultimecia reached down and smoothed her hair with a motherly touch, reminding her once more what it was like to be loved.
Lowering her head onto Julias chest, Rinoa felt what warmth her mothers body seemed to emit. The soul was already gone, but the morbid comfort of being near her once more, to see her again with the eyes of the present. Even if she was gone, it had been over twelve years and just to have the chance to be near her again was amazing.
I love you mommy. The last words the broken child spoke before surrendering her soul, and what sanity remained, to Ultimecia.
It paralleled a scene written in a horror novel, when the character wakes up from the nightmare after repressing memories of the killer. Yet, this wasnt a nightmare it had been her truth. The killer in this book was a demented soul twisting reality for sadistic pleasure. Rinoas vision was blurred as her eyes struggled to find a common focus. Sweat drenched her body and her hands clenched the sheets as if clinging to sanity.
She would have screamed if she had contained the energy.
Rinoa, Im here. Look at me. His weight was almost entirely on her, as he had been trying to stop her from injuring herself. Slowly he moved to the side of the bed, knowing that she was once again aware of her surroundings. He reached for her fingers that were tightly gripping the sheets. She immediately withdrew her hand when they touched, acting as if the contact stung like poisonous venom. She looked different apprehension, hatred and betrayal contained in her normally gentle eyes.
Dont you dont you dare touch me! she screamed, not caring who heard her.
Rinoa please calm down. Just relax and take a deep breath. Edea tried to step forward, but Cid placed a hand on her shoulder impeding her advance.
This is your fault. You wanted her to take me you wanted me go through this. You couldnt put anyone you cared about through this. You dont care about me no one does.
There was almost no emotion showing on her face. It was as if her life force had been drained in twenty minutes. Everything was locked hidden deep inside; only the pain in her eyes betrayed the void of emotion.
Squall sat completely at a loss for words. He had no idea of how to approach her right now; she was beyond anything he had ever seen. It reminded him of a prisoner of war who had been interrogated for countless months. She had nothing left to give her will for life had been stolen again.
The sheet fell to the floor as she placed both feet over the side of the bed. She was a puppet with someone controlling her strings, each movement precise and meticulous. She was exceedingly careful not to look at him, or the other two within the room.
Her demeanor sent a shiver down his spine. It brought him back to Lunar Base, and for a brief moment, he wondered if someone else was controlling her body. He wondered if some entity that defied the laws of time swallowing her being. He couldnt endure such pain again.
Oh Hyne, he whispered bitterly, his heart racing frantically in his chest. Whatever she had relived had been enough to make her lose her sanity. And if she was going to be like this, his wasnt that far behind. Please Rinoa, look at me...say something.
To his surprise, she willingly obeyed his request. Her words were embittered, yet surprisingly lacking of intonation. Im nothing but an immature, spoiled brat that ruined your life. Youre right, I would be much better off with Seifer.
Rinoa, what are you talking about?
I heard everything every thought you ever had Maybe it is better you dont speak your mind, because I now understand how your mind works.
Hyne, Rinoa please that was long time ago. You were different then, we were different then. You know that isnt how I feel now.
Get away from me. People dont change, who am I kidding?
He reached out to grab her. Maybe it was a trained reaction; maybe it was his growing need to comfort her whatever it was didnt work. Violently she grabbed his arm, twisting it away from her. Her eyes were swollen, as if she had been crying for hours. It had only been twenty-five minutes The pain carried far greater than mere minutes, or even hours it was years layered into one enormous peak that was exploding like a volcano.
She started intensely shaking, and if for the fact she hadnt been standing, he would have thought her to be experiencing a seizure. All she could do was look at him beyond hurt. Opening her mouth, she was going to say something, but abruptly stopped just shaking her head.
Then she turned and ran.
Just like the night at the dance, he stood immobile and confused. This magnified a thousand times over. Now he didnt stand as a cadet confused with her suddenly disappearing, but a man watching someone he loved running - running away from him.
Let her be, warned Cid. If you go after her, it will only cause more pain.
Edea couldnt stand the sight of seeing one her children in such turmoil, and tried to remain strong for all of them. On the inside, she was dying just as much as Squall was. She felt responsible and her guilt could never completely fade. She had to try; maybe someday these two would see the other side of their bond, one not mentioned in textbooks. The amazing sense of being that other couples could only dream of. For all its downsides, the upsides far outweighed them if given time.
This time she walked over to the errant knight, placing her hand on his shoulder. Give her a few days. Right now, Rinoa is facing every trauma that she ever had to face, multiplied tenfold. To her it wasnt in the past, but as if everything just happened in the present. What you thought, what you said it wasnt a year ago, it was today. Every death, every lie, every word spoken or thought bad about her
Squall turned his head to look at Edea, and when their eyes met he could see the sorrow reflected in them. She had gone through it too, it was always the women who suffered the most; their knights just had to make the right choices. Something that up until now, he had never been especially good at.
Maybe it wasnt in Edea that laid the answers, but in Cid. Did this happen to you? The commander demanded walking toward the headmaster, pointing his finger accusingly, Did you watch your wife go through the same thing?
Yes, and I was told to give her a few days to comprehend everything she had just seen.
Maybe that was it somewhere along the line Cid and Edea had taken a wrong turn, no matter how good their intentions were. Squall would not let that happen. Like hell Im making that mistake. His words caught the couple off guard or at the very least it was the abruptness in his reasoning. He never said another word, leaving their apartment never even taking the time to close the door.
Well, Cid paused for a moment reaching his arms around his wife. He did it.
I know, she snaked her arm around his back, laying her head on his chest. I couldnt have asked for as much.
Do you think he knows it is a test between them?
No, but my guess is he doesnt care.
He didnt wait. He didnt make the first mistake I made and that is all that matters.
He never remembered running so fast in his life. It wasnt some kind of hurried walk or slow jog, it was a full-scale run, and neither heaven nor hell could make him stop. The halls were almost barren, but he didnt expect them to be occupied at such a late hour. He couldve been breaking a thousand Garden rules he didnt care.
Finally, he reached her room, and began knocking on her door. At first, he wasnt sure where she might have gone, there were almost endless possibilities. If he knew one thing about her, shed feel the need to go where she found the most comfort. Where it contained the least amount of memories of him, a neutral zone in her mind.
When there was still no answer, he reached in his jacket pocket for his master key. If ever there was an appropriate time to abuse his authority, he figured this to be it. Sliding the master cardkey in the reader, the door clicked allowing him to enter.
He spoke softly, as if not to frighten her. The only illumination was that of moonlight peering through the closed blinds. Soft muffled cries filled the room, and he could tell she was lying curled up on the bed. Shutting the door behind him, he called her name a second time. It went as unanswered as his first attempt. Suddenly he felt that being there was a horrible invasion of her privacy, but that didnt stop him. She was hurting, and he would be damned if she had to suffer alone. Even if his stupidity was one of the causes.
Sitting down on the bed, he moved his arm slowly toward her. He flinched when she reacted almost at the speed of light. Even in the dark, she grabbed his wrist with precise accuracy stopping his advance.
Dont you dare touch me.
His heart sank at the pure spitefulness rooted in her words. In one fluid motion, she pushed him away and rolled so her back was toward him.
He gathered a breath before continuing, Can we talk about this?
Oh, now you want to talk classic.
Dont Rinoa we have to talk this out.
I think youve said quiet enough about me in your lifetime and Ive seen your idea of talking thank you.
He wanted to scream. If it wouldnt have alerted the entire faculty wing, he would have given in to the urge.
Listen, I dont know what you heard or saw, and I cant deny some things that I probably did. If you want me to say what you heard was all lies I cant give you that satisfaction. But dammit, its what you didnt know that made all the difference. What you didnt hear was the hundreds of good thoughts mixed with the few negative ones. Or the way I would look at you every time we got into a battle just to make sure you were all right. I wasnt ready for what I was feeling, and the easiest things to think, as they so often are, are the negative ones. It was easier to think of you as Rinoa, Im so sorry
She didnt react after he was done speaking, which he took as a good sign. At least it was better than hitting him over the head with her laptop; he was half expecting the latter. Looking down, he noticed how his hands were trembling. He had faced some of the greatest battles known to man, and yet he had never been so scared in his life. At least up until this point. He thought if he said one wrong word it would all end, and that thought scared him even more. Calming himself, he took a deep breath before continuing.
Rinoa, why did Ultimecia think it was so important to focus on what I was thinking? Honestly I think she knew. She could sense a connection, there had to be a reason she focused on just me. Think about it we hadnt known each other that long. It wasnt as if you were hearing things from Zell or Irvine, was it? She drew on whatever feelings we had and used that against you.
So many things she had seen far too many images. And as angry as she was, she somehow couldnt stay really mad at him. Okay, she could still stay just mad at him. But here he was breaking rules just to be with her, this was not the same person she had seen the in dreams. Maybe back then she could have believed it all right she did believe it.
Was I was I that bad?
No, you were you and I wouldnt have it any other way.
He moved to the top of the bed, leaning his back against the headboard. Knowing it was a gamble, he reached over to her, placing his hand on her shoulder. She shivered, although it wasnt cold in there. The most important thing was she didnt push him away.
The bed shifted as she rolled to face him. The fresh tears reflected the moonlight as it drifted through the window. She wanted to look him in the eyes. She had so many questions she wanted to ask about what she heard - what she saw. Yet, right now, she didnt want to speak to anyone, even him. The look in his eyes told the story, at least what she needed to know right now. There would be time later, right now she just needed solace.
Reaching out, he cradled her closer to his chest, she complied, and laid her head on his chest. His arms encircled her and she felt better, but still upset.
Im still mad at you. She rasped out as she moved her arm around his waist, returning the embrace.
I know, he answered honestly holding her tighter. I know.
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