Shinra Vignettes: Elena
This may come as a shock, but not all females are women.
Any idiot with the right bits and pieces can fall under the classification of female, but to be a woman is something entirely different. Men sit back in bars, fat cigars hanging from between their lips, talking about how much they love women.
Lying sacks of shit. Men are afraid of women, what they want are females, cheap tricks with eager lips who know nothing more than how to beg and roll over.
A woman will take one look at his precious manhood and rip it to shreds with words alone. Hell, if shes really a woman hell still want her afterwards.
Ive been both.
Having power doesnt automatically make one a woman. Look at Scarlet, shell spread for any guy and she could torch half of Midgar with a word. Is she a woman? No, hells no. Women can fall from grace, but they never land on their ass.
None of this ever presented itself to me until the day I became a Turk. Words still lance through me, simple sentences that have never left my thoughts.
Elena, you talk too much.
Elena, youre still the rookie.
Elena, youre a Turk. Act like one.
Act like one? How, by compromising my dignity? By relinquishing self-worth without a thought to my superiors, that precious and suspiciously male aristocracy? Of course. And I let them win, for a little while.
I couldnt help it at the time; Mother always raised me to please, but never to have common sense. They sucked me in with promises and lies, accepted silent sweet surrenders I made in the dark underneath their sheets. They made me feel hot, but their hands were cold, fed with ice water from frozen hearts. It became a game to see who could be the first to shatter my spirit.
It was only a game if they won.
And they never did.
As far as Im concerned it was no chore to let those boys know just how I felt about being a doll, but ask them and theyll show you scars. Contrary to the beliefs of hundreds of health class movies, its the day you make a man cry at your feet that you first become a woman, and only then.
Every day I see it, little girls wounded at the hands of their cruel Romeos, and despite my sympathy I cant help but be selfish.
Because I am woman.
Dont wait to hear me roar, youll only be wasting your time. We women dont roar.
Our own names.